Monday, February 4, 2013

Binge and Purge ----- The Closet!

I have learned a bad pattern/ habit I have that contributes to my past "yo-yo" weight.  I have the habit of keeping the "fat" clothes and then getting back into them.  NOT THIS TIME!!!  I usually keep the bigger clothes for a few reasons: I spent good money on them, they are comfy - especially since they are loose and baggy and/or they are fashionable/ look good.

Truth be told, loose baggy clothes don't look that good and if something is fashionable, it should be worn properly including fit properly.  So, I just debunked the last excuse.

Now, comfort. Who can argue with comfort? But if they are comfortable because they are loose and baggy then somewhere in my mind it makes me feel good that you've lost the weight that made them that way. Since my mind is now all proud of me for losing weight, I think "Hey, I've worked hard to lose this weight, I deserve a cheat/treat" and I eat that late night dessert or order that yummy cheeseburger and french fries. Then the next day the clothes are still baggy because one cheat/treat won't change my weight loss. But then my mind is like "Hey, I ate it yesterday and my clothes still feel the same. I can do it again.... today"  That's where the pattern starts. Then before I know it, the "fat" clothes are fitted :(.  So, as I lose the weight, I will be getting rid of the "fat" aka too big clothes and getting comfortable but fitting smaller clothes.

Now, money.  No one wants to throw money away. And new clothes does mean spending more money so it's a double hit to the budget. First of all, I may have spent good money on the clothes. If I never wear them again, it doesn't matter because its like they are not in my closet anyway. If I spent good money on an item and I really want to keep it then I must really want to wear it. I can't wear it loose and baggy because I'll get back into it so I have to have it altered to fit properly or toss it.

Bottom line, my closet is binging and purging.  Better that my closet does it than me. I've tried weight loss that way and I still ended up overweight. I'm doing right this time so I will keep it off.

FYI - because I know I will also shrink out of the size I am currently wearing, I am sticking to the least expensive fitted clothes I can find.  I don't mean fitted like a glove, not only would that be unattractive on my current physique, it would have to be a stretchy material that will grow if I grow and that's not good (see 3rd paragraph). I mean clothes that fit nicely but don't have room for me to grow in. Thrift stores, friends, Ross, Marshal's, TJMaxx, Wal-mart, Target, Clearance racks, etc are where I'm shopping right now.  If I need something really nice for an event or occasion or just to feel good, I will spend good money and make sure it's something that can be altered down as I size down.

I am basically a poor college student. I have a full time job that I am technically underpaid at but I love my job and my boss is flexible enough if I want to take days to do a commercial or short film project.* Plus it allows me to further my college eduction. Between the cost of the education, the cost of living in Los Angeles, and the lack of high income I need to find a sugar-daddy or a sponsor. LOL.  Until the budget changes, inexpensive shopping spree, here I come!




*For those that don't know, I have had a career as a full-time makeup artist in the film industry for over 15 years. I recently decided to follow another life calling that requires me to further my education, therefore, I now do makeup more part time and nanny/ personal assist full time so I can go to school.